Tuesday, February 25, 2025

5-Star Reading

 Rarely do I feel like "I'm having a good day" these days; but today was actually a pretty good day. As superstitious as this may sound, I'd checked the daily Aquarius luck the night before from the usual Weibo blogger I follow and I'd never seen so many stars in one Aquarius reading before. Still, not really taking it to heart I carried on with my day. Just so happened that I woke up with a congested chest and feeling cough-y, then my period hit. Now nothing sounds like a favourable day yet, but since I had that cramps I had to hit the washroom as soon as I entered work again. I'd check to make sure Nick wasn't around before I ran to the washroom, just to find out on the way back he was standing right in the middle, how convenient. I had a black mask on and holding my stomach, I quietly approached his direction, and obviously he saw me from afar, but this time (since a while I've been dodging him), his turned head at my direction stayed a while, and when I approached he very proactively turned to wave, I waved back. For some reason I always feel like he's more interested in me when I look frail and sickly.... maybe that's true. 

Throughout the day even though my face was masked I got a lot of glances from the patrons and pedestrians alike. I don't know if it's the period pheromones or just 'cause I washed my hair the night prior, but I think it's apparent that I looked good today, I consider that luck, too. 

The best thing of all was probably that I got a message from a potential buyer from FB marketplace. After some not-so-complicated haggling, we agreed on $600 and I actually had it sold just now! I'm so glad I took the camera with me when I was forced out of mother's house, wise decision, and wise decision to have it sold as well. 

For the rest of the night I'm just gonna focus on recuperating from my cold, and maybe reward myself with some animes and leave the chores to tomorrow.

Saturday, February 15, 2025

Sucker Punch

 Honestly, seeing his reaction and how he tries to avoid me these days is pretty awkward, as if I'd done something terrible while in reality I've been more cordial and friendly than before. Really is some loser-energy he's giving off. But looking at the bright side, now I really don't have to grasp at straws as to whether there's a potential, I may as well literally move forward from that building. Be persistent and keep pursuing the 'next level', 2025 has just started. 

Saturday, February 1, 2025

Perseverance

Persevere—that’s the only thing left for me to do.

I picked myself up from another episode of depression after confronting all my insecurities and disappointments with my family. Persevering and sticking to my goals is my only option now. Even if it’s just a coping mechanism, it’s better than nothing at all.